Here’s that personal post I told you to stay tuned for.
This will be in no particular order; I’m just going to empty my mind..
I want to act so much. I have had this feeling that I’ve had once in every blue moon since I seen spy kids for the first time and every movie or show after that that I could see myself in. My eyes get big and wide and I am completely engaged in the art of the Actor/Actress who brings that said character to life. I am invested, I am whole. I feel… completely at peace. I see myself auditioning, coming to work at 6 am, and leaving at 6 pm most days, unless we run over, and that’s okay, because I am completely invested. But I am a mom, my daughter needs me. She’s old enough to come on set and watch me work after school. We’ll talk on my break about school, and she can do her homework in my dressing room, I’ll check it on my next break, if I can’t make it home to tuck her in, I can FaceTime her, God willing we have a tight bond like that. Maybe she’ll want to follow in my footsteps and pursue a career in the arts. That’d be great but if not, that’s okay, I support whatever she wants to do, as long as she isn’t trickin’ in these streets.. any who I digress..
I see myself rehearsing my lines, taking improv classes, meeting with fellow actors, sharing tips and tricks, traveling..
But let’s pause a minute..
I’m a mom, with a job working 40 hours a week, and I have to enroll for summer classes before my student loans hit repayment status. Do I even want to go to school? Maybe I can sign up for an acting class! but the times don’t fit my work schedule, Should I change jobs again? Find another job that allows me to set my own hours as long as I work 40 each week? That’s a steady flow of income but who really does that besides uber/lyft? I hear some people drive for both.. but am I really comfortable with a full-time odd job? Is the work consistent?
You have reminded me of my calling, I am excited, I am motivated, besides giving birth, I haven’t felt this excited about anything in a long time. Your word says “I can do all things through Christ [you] who strengthens me” (Philippians 4:13). So I stand on your word and give you all of my trust. You’ve never led me astray. I pray you protect my relationships, as in this line of work they can diminish, as I want to be the very best Actress I can be. I am so excited for your plans for me and this journey. I will start off small and try my best to go where you lead me. I leave this with you in Jesus’ name,