Tamia’s Birthday Letter

A year old? Already?!

Where has the time gone? Tamia, my Mia.

Standing, walking, and talking!

Soon, I’ll look up to your stretched out hands asking for the keys *sniffs*

It has been amazing… watching you grow this past year, and I am looking forward to every second, every minute, every hour, every day, every week, every month, every year, every waking [and sleeping that I can get] moment, both happy and sad, to come.

I want you to always know that I as your mother will always do my best to teach you right from wrong, guiding you in the right direction and steering you away from the wrong, to the best of my judgement.

Always know, that with God, all things are possible, as He is your strength, your rock. We will continue to pray, and as I grow stronger in my faith the man above, so will you, until you feel either able to establish a relationship on your own with him, or if [God forbid] you feel there can’t be one.

It is my job to teach and guide you. It is yours to continue to stay on that path.

There is still a lot you have to learn about this world [as do I] but, know that I will always be here to help you.

I pray that I continue to show you just as much love and support as I have always wanted.

I apologize for not figuring out what your cries meant. For the most part I got them down, although there were some I just couldn’t decipher. There may come a time where you look to me for answers and I just can’t give them to you. I leave you with this at the end of your first year: Be patient, be kind, and steadfast. Pray, meditate, and he will lead you.

Always remember that, Mama loves you. Always.

Happy First Birthday (Sept. 18, 2016)

Trip to International Food Market/Seafood Market with Dad

Gotta love my dad man. Whenever I’m with him, I feel empowered to discover the world around me. I think that is where I get my optimism from. As down to Earth he is, he always sees opportunity in any situation.

Now I didn’t grow up with him, but I like to think that his half is what kept my dreams alive. I don’t mean to downplay my mom but, we struggled. And she just didn’t feel there was time to dream big when mouths needed to be fed now. So, I get it. But too much of one thing and not enough of the other could always wreak havoc in a person’s life. Balance— influences harmony. And that, is a beautiful thing.. 

I got a phone call yesterday morning  asking if I wanted to ride with him to the an International Market (Grand Market off of Newtown Road in Virginia Beach) so I thought cool. I needed to talk to him anyway.

Got there, and immediately notice the diversity. Blacks, whites, Asians, Hispanics, and those from the Islands! Every isle for a different area of the world. I was in awe. 

Later we finished up by going to the seafood market to grab a bushel of crabs before it’s season ended. Brought in October strong! I’ll stop carrying on now and allow the art to speak for itself… 

International Farmer’s Market (my dad is pictured in the third shot)

Seafood Market

Free Phone to Anyone in Need!!

I am proud to say I am now working with Safelink via SimTru company to provide phones to anyone who qualifies:
If you belong to a government program (Medicaid, SNAP, section 8, etc.)
Eligible by income (last 4 months of stubs, last years income, tax return form, or last years w2 form acceptable)
You have a child/dependent that belongs to a government program (including free/reduced lunch at school and or Medicaid) birth certificate AND social security card required 
Social Security- benefits letter no older than 12 months 


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The Blue Pill or the Red?

I need help and guidance here! I’ve been working for my current job for two months, I love it. 

Here’s an overview:

City job. Rate of pay is 14.01 an hour, but I only get 25 hours a week. It pays the bills, but I’m not able to save money like I need to. As much as they love to promote from within the company, I have to be there for at least 6 months before I can even apply for a better position. This is a permanent position. I don’t get benefits (part-time employee), except for the discounts they give me (free services they offer, discounts off rent, and amusement park tickets). the hours are mid-day, 12:30-5:30 which is okay. They’re saying I may have to come in earlier shifts. Like 5-6am, etc. it’s a lot of information to learn which I don’t mind. They have resources out the butt to guide me. There’s a solution for everything. I am also gaining the office & computer experience I’ve been seeking for a while now. But I have a daughter and I can’t just get by. I’m a single mother and will soon be working on one income. On top of that, because I’m in a different tax bracket, taxes are a killer!
Now this other job, if I am offered, 

Is a 12 month contract and pays 14.44 an hour. It’s working with shipments & customers (something else I’ve been interested in) in another city, and offers a mid-day shift but more hours (35 hours weekly, 1-8p).  Double the paycheck of what I’m getting now. Which I could definitely use. I wouldn’t have to worry about a second job, but I would have to deduct my own taxes. I just finished working a contracted position and I owe, but this job would allow me to pay it off. I believe this job maybe a city job (the business I would contract for). So I could receive some benefits/discounts. But after its up, I would be in search of another job if one is not offered to me. I was out of work for two months after my last contracted job. But I do know what I didn’t know then. And have no reasons not to save. I think I’m going to go for if I am offered, but I hate that I’ve invested do much (well I guess two months is not much and I’m not trying to make a career out of either so..?) I think I have my answer but value a second opinion. 

Help me sort this out guys! I need outside perspective! Let me know your thoughts in the comments. I need to converse (laughs)! 

Until Next Time,


A Shift is in Affect.

Just when I thought I was in this journey myself, the one person I thought I couldn’t count on, is here. 

My siblings & I relationship with one another was compromised growing up because of the relationship our parents had with one another. Actually it was nonexistent. My mother’s strong hate for my father led to resentment in even having his children, I like to believe where her mean spirit stemmed from. It was to the point where we grew to forget how to cohabit in the same house with one another. We didn’t speak to each other, and when we did it was a quarrel the entire conversation. Even when we tried to be civil, it was awkward. We all as an end result, shut down. 

We eventually as teenagers found a corner, and stayed to ourselves. A quiet house. Out of site, out of mind.

I thought this would carry on into adulthood, hoping it magically wouldn’t. Because then, I just couldn’t see things getting better between us. I thought we’d always be damaged. I came to terms with this being my reality. Never really having a close relationship with my siblings. But I’ll be…

I asked God for what I wanted and needed and he his giving me things I hadn’t even thought to ask. He is taking care of problems that I but tied in the back of my mind and long forgot about. 

I knew it was a reason why my brother has been visiting more frequently, he wants a relationship with me. He wants to stay in contact. He wants to help our siblings… and me! He went far as to say if I needed to borrow some money from him— if he has it, then so do I. This is a big step from “I’m moving far, and won’t nobody even have my number.”

… Faith without works is dead. I’m far from finished. 

Until Next Time,


Happy Mother’s Day!

Such a magical day..

 I spent my time helping my baby to sleep better and cleaning, followed by receiving a few gifts accompanied with a few phone calls, a visit from my mom. 

 a stroll through Sandy Bottom Nature Park, & a trip to Cici’s Pizza. I couldn’t ask for anything more. I’m so blessed and thankful for receiving two more charms to add to my Pandora Bracelet:

Now I’m not materialistic, but this bracelet means a lot to me. It was the first time I received a not just expensive (not that price matters—it really doesn’t) but thoughtful gift (in a relationship). And even though we are no longer together, it makes me feel even more valued to still receive gifts. 

Today allowed me to reflect on not just my duties as a mother, but the task that God has called upon me to carry out. Last year on this day, I couldn’t appreciate it. I didn’t feel like a mother because Tamia had not yet been born, so when I went to church with my mother and kept receiving wishes, I grew angry. I didn’t feel like a mother. Everything was new to me, I was scared I would fail, and kept being told everything would be alright when I was trying to rationalize that idea in my head on top of struggling from paycheck to paycheck and had withdrawn from my college courses, unsure if I’d go back in the fall. 

But as I’ve said before after introducing you all to Tamia, she’s been nothing more than a blessing. She’s been a motivator, a pick-me-up, my pride (for I don’t have many) and my joy in waking up everyday. 

I look forward to waking up. With a purpose, I strive to get things done in the most effective way possible for, she is my purpose. 

Here’s to a great Mother’s Day & many more to come with my little beauty.

Hope you mothers cherished yours.


Gift List! 

I’ve been so busy with the new job transition and tight tight schedule that I haven’t had a chance to sit down and blog! But I am making some time don’t you guys worry. Well, let me at least share my Christmas list with you all.. That is, my gift list:



  1.      Fisher Price Kick & Play Piano
  2.   Bright Starts Safari
  3.   Fisher Price Rainforest Friends 3-in-1 mobile 
  4.   Fisher Price Soothe n’ Play Light Show
  5.   Baby Einstein Glow
  6.       More clothes!


  1.    Gift cards!!
  2.   A jacket
  3.   We’ll see what the budget says about this one lol

Last but not least, Terrence:

  1.   New shoes 
  2.   A watch
  3. Maybe some sneakers or an all about you basket with all of his favorites things!! Depends on the budget.. 

This is what I hope to get for my loved ones for Christmas after paying the bills and getting more work clothes and a new coat for me *smirks*. Hoping I get paid tomorrow! Fingers crossed